An internal bleeding that no one can see
I don’t deserve your love I can be so mean and ugly
This is how I feel
What was in front of me seemed too real
Daddy issues my tears have seen so many tissues
Maybe if I wasn’t so naïve participating in the single life I would be able to better love you
Confused I hurt myself and I know I hurt you too
The more I act out is a true sign that love is in need
An emptiness a void past infidelity has me paranoid
I still wonder why I wasn’t good enough in his eyes
Now years later I have to keep reminding myself that I’m the prize
How can I help you?
My insecurities should be in my rearview
The things I have done are beyond foul
But yet you still love me and capable to hold a conversation with a smile
I don’t understand
Why are you here my dear?
What are you trying to show me?
I’m embarrassed and ashamed
I try to be nonchalant but believe me I’m in pain
My actions have left a residue of guilt
Forgive me if you’re able and equip
Let me also forgive myself
I hate being this vulnerable
Not sure why I do the things that I do
So I just write and leave clues
You have every right to walk away
I would ……not sure why you stay ~SJ
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