Thursday, November 8, 2012

Human by Author Shana Jay

There are so many layers to me 

more than the eye can see 

Like a rose that stands out 

but not purposely 

Crimson Red from the passion that flows deep

Never quite understood

Not able to fit in 

Not capable of being apart of the popular blend

My words are direct, bittersweet, full and complete

I am simply complex-ed 

Beautifully Human 

If you cut me I' ll bleed 

Delicate like the leaves that fall from the cinnamon tree

I have feelings

I love hard

I cry silently 

and I will agree to disagree 

I will lash out and throw a temper tantrum or two 

Some layers are stubborn and need to be worked through 


Perfectly Flawed 


Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Journey With My Ex By Shana Jay

My heart feels alive with every beat 

I feel the ice melting away

His lips have quenched the thirst that my soul desires

No longer bound allowing my inner child to run free without the fear of being judged

He may not be my prince charming but he has helped me realize I dont want to be alone

My heart has been awaken by the possibilities of finding love

These feelings arent artificial and certainly cant be duplicated

Ive walked into the sun and his arms are so welcoming 

A rebirth of life where there was death 

A baptism of understanding and clarity allows my mind to think of all the possibilities 

I feel closer to "full and complete healing", no regrets, no what ifs

Life is not a script because love doesnt play by the rules

Ive decided to take a chance with eyes wide open

Ears full of his song

Nose filled with his scent 

Skin soft from a new glow

Im ready to see what happens next .......this journey with my Ex

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

I Author Shana Jay

I write to be heard

I write to release

I write because it brings me peace

I write to be understood 

I write about what I love 

I write to stay focused and how some wish they could

I write about ambition and aspiring dreams 

I write the words the caged bird sings 

I write my way to wholeness 

I write about his sweet caress and his kiss of gentleness

I write adjectives, nouns, and verbs 

I write because I have the right to be heard

I write and I write some more 

I write about my Savior to whom I adore 

I write about my anatomy and The Million Dollar Pie Academy 

I write....that's what I do 

I write to inspire you 

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Why Are You So Thirsty? By Shana Jay

“Women sell their souls just to buy some attention” ~Wale

I’m slowly coming to the conclusion that Wale’s statement has some truth behind it. In observation I have seen several cases of  “ The Thirsty Mentality” and its sad to say that this issue is more common in women more so than men. Some would beg to differ with me and say that being thirsty isn’t gender based but I can only go by what I see on a regular bases. Webster defines thirsty as a need for water: dry or parched yet the Urban Dictionary defines thirsty as the act of wanting someone or something more than necessary.
Ecclesiastes 3 states there is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the heavens but no where did it state there is a time to be thirsty and look a fool.  I am so utterly sick of seeing beautiful women exploit themselves and becoming “Attention Whores.” Whatever happened to leaving some things to the imagination? Let the record show that men are visual creatures, but when you have everything on display for the world to see you have pretty much taken the adventure out of the game.
Spring hasn’t sprung but you would think the way some women are dressing that we are on a nude beach in Florida. Girl stop! Please put some clothes on I’m just saying. Spare me the agony of seeing “poochie with cheese” this year. Poochie with cheese is the muffin top with a side of cottage cheese thighs. Spare me the thought of seeing booty meat with skid marks black as asphalt sagging to the floor. Spare me the sight of seeing every color on the color wheel on your eyes and in your hair ….you are just doing way too much.
I’m not sure if thirsty is the appropriate word or dehydrated because its makes no sense for you to send these type of smoke signals just for attention.  Its not just the attire that frustrates me it’s the self-centeredness as well. Ooooh eeemmmm gheeee! Everything is not about you!!! Its funny how thirsty people have to have the spotlight and if they don’t get it they throw temper tantrums or better yet when their golden opportunity presents itself they embarrass everyone around them cause they have no tact. Now this particular level of thirstiness can be found in both genders.
 Have you ever met a person who has to be recognized by their title? Ok I understand you went to college and earned your degree and out of respect you deserve to be called “Dr. So and So” however you should not be puffed up and full of yourself. Please note titles don’t get you closer to God nor will it get you a V.I.P. pass to Heaven.  It would be a sad day if I got upset with everyone who didn’t recognize or address me as Author Shana Jay.  “What’s in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet.”~Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet. translates this phrase accurately: What matters is what something is not what it is called. Words don’t mean much … can still smell a rose and appreciate its beauty even if you called that particular rose “axle grease” instead.
In closing, the topic at church Sunday dealt with baggage and how we need to look deep within and deal with our personal issues. The baggage we carry can be very visible for example insecurity, arrogance, pride, self-centeredness etc. and if we don’t handle these issues people will hate to see us coming. Lets correct what we can so that we can reflect a positive image to the world.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

"Im Just Looking" By Shana Jay

"Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt" ~Abe Lincoln


For those who know me on a personal level are very familiar with the “I’m Just Looking” statement that slides off my tongue quite often. I found myself “just looking” at the statement millionaire Romney said about the poor. He states “I’m not concerned about the very poor, you can focus on the very poor, that’s not my focus.” Really?! I know the hell he aint worried about the poor or anyone else for that matter seeing as if he is a millionaire. It really doesn’t matter at this point if he was republican or a democrat, everyone should be concerned with the poor simply because the poor population is increasing rapidly.

Mr. Romney has now made a spectacle of himself just because he spoke too soon. God gave everyone a brain and even though people like Romney only use a small percentage he did give us common sense to think before we speak.  I’m finding out that people with money seem to have no tact or couth about themselves when they address people. Let’s take Kanye West for instance. Now here we have a very talented man with access to unlimited amounts of money yet he still is a

 You can dress Kanye up make him look like he has a bit of sense but no would guess that he didn’t graduate from college. The thing is he is thirsty for attention so the minute he isn’t in the spotlight he has to do or say something to make people ashamed there are associated with him. Its not just Kanye and Romney its others out here as well even people in your family or it maybe you. All I’m saying is lets think before we speak it will save you a ton of embarrassment, less time having to explain your actions and have people like me “Just Looking”...



Shana Jay



Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Learn to Detach!! By Shana Jay

Learn to detach...Don't cling to things, because everything is impermanent... But detachment doesn't mean you don't let the experience penetrate you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate fully. That's how you are able to leave it... Take any emotion--love for a woman, or grief for a loved one, or what I'm going through, fear and pain from a deadly illness. If you hold back on the emotions--if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them--you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. You're afraid of the pain, you're afraid of the grief. You're afraid of the vulnerability that love entails. But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then can you say, 'All right. I have experienced that emotion. I recognize that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment.

I read this quote and it really hit home for me. I am the type that can mask pain very well and this comes from my background. I was told at an early age crying was a sure sign of weakness and from then on I took that with me in my adulthood. I would always tell the people that have actually seen my cry they better not tell anyone. The reason I would say this is because I hate being vulnerable and also looking vulnerable to others.  
The writer made valid points and one that really stood out was “Learn to Detach.”
For some people detaching from painful situations come easily than others. For me it depends on the severity of the situation. In past relationships that went sour overtime I learned how to isolate myself not just from the person but from the actual reality of it all. This was and is my way of coping because dealing with the pain would cause me to have to examine myself.
            Everybody may not be as open as I am in this area but in order for me to help others I must first help myself. Overall God allows situations to happen for a reason and I do believe that He won’t give us anything that we can’t handle. As a matter of fact, in going through my trials I have acquired thicker skin. Learning to detach is a skill that I’m in the process of mastering because harboring pain, negativity and regret is not healthy; not to you or others who are involved.
            In conclusion, lets learn in 2012 to detach! Just because things did not go as you planned it doesn’t mean it’s a bad thing. Everything that happens to you is a lesson ..learn from it …digest what you can and throw away the bones. You can’t live life fully if you carry baggage this will only weigh you down from the true purpose that God has for you!

Shana Jay