Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Feeling Some Kind of Way by Shana Jay

“Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth— for your love is more delightful than wine”

I have yet to be sold on “love at first sight” as a matter of fact I don’t believe it’s possible. Now what I do believe in is encountering a soul mate.  I have had all sort of encounters and I possibly need to write a tell all about them (lol). On a serious note it’s an amazing feeling to encounter a person who can relate to you mentally and emotionally.  Have you ever had someone to come along and change your views on love? I have. I was totally done with love because I felt that love had made a fool of me one to many times.  Love left me feeling abandoned, confused and down right bitter. There would be times that I would cry rivers upon rivers forming a sea of hurt. I really thought love was my enemy.  The reality of my situation was that I shared my love with the wrong people who were undeserving of what I had to offer. I also was searching for love in the wrong places.
In order to understand what love is I researched the bible and this is what I found “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” The men that I desired love from couldn’t give this to me because they were selfish. Then I also realized that if a man doesn’t have a relationship and love for God then how can he possibly love me? What I have learned is that God has someone for everyone we were not made/created to be alone. So when I encountered this person I was truly out done. He is a great friend, confidant and loves God more than life itself. I personally thought I was damaged goods but that is not a true statement. The bad relationships were actually learning experiences and God knew that I had to go through them in order to be the vessel He desires me to be in this walk.
In conclusion, what I appreciate is that God loves me so much that he allowed this person to come into my life to be my healer. He is showing me that all men aren’t dogs, romance isn’t dead, and last but not least there are men out here with integrity. If this can happen for me, if I can change my mind about opening up and considering loving again then God can do this for you too. Just remember everything happens on HIS time not yours.
Shana Jay


  1. Thanks Pree Pree *Author Shana Jay* (blogger st8 tripping 2day)

  2. When u wrote this, were u looking into my mind nd soul.. I feel the same way.. Thank u for being brave enough to put your feelings out there for others to read and related.. Because I truly do.....

  3. Wow Anonymous! U are more than welcome

  4. Great insight and expression. Enjoyed the dance last Friday...Tall. Dark Stranger