Monday, June 20, 2011

A Piece of Mind By Shana Jay

Peace of Mind
Peace of mind is very hard to come by and believe me I speak from experience. I can truly say there is nothing like it and nothing that can compare to this serene experience.  Peace of mind is priceless; it can’t be bought.  I have always desired to be rich but even millionaires encounter problems.  I heard that the more [money] you have the more problems you inherit.
            I still struggle with the situations of life. I have encountered so much peace.  No matter what comes my way, I just think of people who have stumbled upon circumstances that render them helpless and who are in a worse state than me.  I embrace peace as if it were my knight in shining armor.  Don’t get me wrong, I am still human and have human reactions.  However, there is only one thing that matters in my life and that is peace of mind.
            Peace of mind has crowned me and I have become heir to the throne of tranquility. My rights of passage consist of a mindset that calls for God to grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.  I have allowed peace to overtake me.  I have surrendered all of my anxieties, worries and fears which in the end are trivial.
            I longed for peace of mind. It was an insatiable craving like known other. It was like an unquenchable thirst. Once I realized that peace of mind was free to anyone who yearned for it, I seized the moment and never let go.  So if you see me now and wonder what’s so different, it’s called Peace of Mind: my rescuer, my liberator, my redeemer, my all and all.  

It feels great to have a piece of mind. I can honestly say that I struggled with this for a long time.  I could never quite master the art because I wasn’t where I was supposed to be.  For example I was attending a church where I was being fed the word of God by the pounds but that wasn’t the church God had in mind for me and I knew this.  The only reason why I joined was because I was in a relationship *if that what it was* with one of the members. 
He invited me to come and I enjoyed the word and the environment but it was also a way in being closer to him. Things were great for us in the beginning but then I started seeing some things in him and in the church that I didn’t agree with, but I still continued to go.  When he and I fell out it was a lot of tension and it was to the point where I would not come to church at all just so that I wouldn’t have to see his face and he did the same.
 Of course you had to know God was not pleased with this because I allowed this man to take my focus off the real reason that I should have been coming to church in the first place and that’s to serve “HIM.”  The lesson I learned was that it was not in my best interest to have a personal relationship with someone that attended the same church as I did.  
What was really crazy was the fact that it was his home church in the beginning but I thought when things went left field that he should have left not me. (A mess) Let me also say that I got deeply involved with this church and the behind the scenes of the ministry disturbed me as well so I had no peace.  I felt as if God was making things uncomfortable for me so that I could leave so that I could get back on track with his plans for me. I didn’t consult God in my decision to join this man’s church I just did it out of convenience.  
Another issue that I had that brought me mental frustration was my job. I can honestly say that I found it hard at times to clock in.  I would pray and then I would pray some more. I had plenty of opportunities to leave but I was so comfortable I just made the best of it. God moved in that situation as well and when he did I felt like a weight had been lifted. 
In conclusion, God can make your seemingly comfortable situation uncomfortable if you’re not in His will. Then if you don’t make the move he has provided for you then he will gladly assist in helping you……. in efforts to get you where you need to be rather it is on the job, in relationships, or church. You see I did what I wanted to do because I felt God wasn’t moving quickly enough. I felt that I was in control of my life and that I made the best decision and since I didn’t consult God I was miserable.   When I finally surrendered I realized that everybody has a purpose and a plan.  I know what mine is and this is why I have peace of mind. I am doing what’s best for me and what God wants for me as well……Are you??

Shana Jay